I am where I am, & that's ok

July - How did we even get here? We just had the summer solstice. A time that celebrates growth, abundance and summer. Very much to do with new beginnings, change looking forward to the second half of the year. And for me, also the start of a new trip around the sun. Personally, I can absolutely relate to that. A need for change and new challenges but without any particular directions or pull. With this is mind I'm trying to be ok without knowing.

What I choose to do for this new trip around the sun is to let myself be and dwell in the being, as opposed to doing, doing, doing. As I have been living a big chunk of my life busy doing, fulfilling others' expectations and chasing goals and dreams that were not mine, this year I want to delve more into who I am and to allow myself to be. So more about allowing life, situations and people be as they are and less chasing, resisting and longing for a certain type of scenario. Resting fully in what life brings because life is indeed happening exactly as it should, for our own and others' best interests. And from this place I want to choose to do more things that are aligned with who I am, and not with what I have done in the past, with what is in my comfort zone, with what others think I should do. I want to allow myself to choose more from a place of authenticity and alignment, not because of convenience, fear or guilt. Non-judgement and authenticity are my KPIs for the next year.

And as always, ACIM lessons are reflecting and supporting my unfold. The lesson I had on my birthday was a summary lesson with 2 messages: "I will step back and let Him lead the way" and "I walk with God in perfect holiness" (ACIM W-173). In other words, step away from your mind (ego) and make room for God (love) to shine through. And once we do that, once we stop judging how everything and everyone should be, once we embrace the moment as it is, we might realize that we are exactly where we need to be. As cliché as it sounds. But as directly experienced as can be.

Leaving this post here as a reminder for myself in days I might get lost in my ego mind and for whoever else needs to read it.